Fully Understand

The idea of having someone watch
While they fully understand
What it is
That is going on
Frightens me.

Face them.
Face those fears.
I tell myself.
But I can’t seem to do it.

This is the best I can do
This is the only way
I know how to
Have peace of mind
So that he doesn’t have to see
That lost girl
Stuck in never ending time.

It stops me from writing freely
Isn’t that enough reason to leave
Or am I supposed to freeze
Even though it feels like
Something is coming after me.