These Words

I am tired of trying
To see what they

How they know
My interests before I would,
How they would show
The shadows I’d try to hide away.
How they formulate;
Where they come from,
Which story, which song,
Which movie, which page,
Which vision;
Did they show.
How they’d effect
The words I’d choose to say.
Do the sounds I hear
Effect them,
Could it be mathematically explained,
Could a computer algorithm solve
If it were to be programmed the right way.

But I couldn’t do
Those things at all.

What about every given thought
In a day,
Or the one before,
Or the one before that,
Or the one before that one,

And then
Trying to see what her words
Said about her,
How much of it was real
How much of it was made
Up in the attics of my brain.

I didn’t mean to fall in love,
With another ghost

But I did


Let Go

This is how most love stories
Come to an end.

Memories tossed and discarded,
Moments once cherished are abandoned,
Regretful days of the time that was given.

In so many ways.

My experience with
Or without a ghost
Added to my growth;
That will be my focus.

You have to let go.